I Do Not Like My MIL today

Yesterday I was in a really great mood. I was happy and wanted to continue this mood, it was making me look forward to the holidays in my little prison here. Yet that had to change.

Last night the voice finale was on as was the finale for ink master. We watched the first hour of the voice then switched over to tattoo nightmare. Everyone was ok with this. Near the end of the hour MIL got impatient and went upstairs to find out the voice winner then came down and told us who it was.. let’s put it this way never watching that show again..

Anyhoo.. the news came on after all this shit and i asked if anyone was going to watch the news since I’ve been advised by my therapist to not watch it as it really affects my moods. Normally we just don’t so I was hoping I could put on something happier. Then I am sure just to be a bitch went, ya I’m watching it.

So I said fine I’m going to bed. I was hoping hubby would join me but he waited 30 mins which made my mind start to wander and become angrier and hate filled. I’m sure she heard me call her a fucking bitch through our door last night and I don’t care.

This is the only TV I can watch actual televsion on, she has one in her room that is hooked up to cable. If she didn’t want to watch ink master she could have said something.. she didn’t have to be a fucking snot..

anyhow, today my mood is still pissy. I feel like she ruined my happy and am not sure how to get it back causwe I just want to slap her in the face and say stop being so fucking selfish all the time.. ugh.

I mean she is like this with everything, she gave us every single thing we had around the house to stuff into the room, cause she doesn’t like sharing her space. We’re like prisoners that are allowed out to watch tv occasionally. it’s painful.

AUGH!

4 comments

  1. This may not be helpful or supportive, but sometimes we just get on each others’ nerves living in close quarters, with different likes and dislikes, different priorities. If at all possible, lighten up. Remember that you are living in your MIL’s house. No doubt it is hard on her, too. You guys are family. Family is not always at their best with each other. When I read this, honestly, my initial response was: lighten up.

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    1. So sorry, A Bipolar’s Reality, for suggesting you lighten up.

      I have been frustrated and enraged many times. In fact, my rage is my weakness. It is an ugly beast. So much easier to flippantly suggest someone else overcome a pissy mood, when I live with a beast (my rage) inside myself.

      I do not know all of the facts of your situation, of your relationship with your MIL. I am sorry.

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  2. You are getting closer and closer to your goal. Fights and hatred towards our loved ones come and go….your happy will return! It’s so tough to share space and a lot of people couldn’t do it but you have. Hole you are doing better now! 🙂 xo

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