About Me

I am a Canadian woman living in America, green card and all! In the 32 years I lived in Canada no one could figure out what was wrong with me and just gave me antidepressants which of course made the mania worse. Scary! *shudder* About 10 years ago after an extremely bad bout of depression and mania, my husband took me to a shrink who finally diagnosed me with Bipolar 1, Social Anxiety and Agoraphobia. While I was grateful to have a diagnosis none of the meds work, some even made it worse. I started to just hope that by some magic it would go away and just lived everyday giving myself to whatever mood took me without analyzing myself at all. Recently thanks to a Mr. Stephen Fry I decided to accept my diagnosis and write about how I felt on a daily basis. Thus this blog was born.

Learning about the things that happen to me and being able to express myself is what I really want. If you read this I hope you might learn something about yourself or just feel better because someone else is going through similar things, even if they are not exactly the same.


  1. Hi Colleen, that’s the attitude to take. The antipsychotic medication seroquel has changed my BiPolar world. I have reconnected with the world and have a quality of life that I have not experienced in many, many years as my BiPolar was undiagnosed. Good luck and keep posting.


  2. I come from a family that is sadly chemically imbalanced including myself. I am not bad enough to have to take meds regularly and do much better without them. I finally allowed my Dr to talk me into antidepressants and they made me a zombie. Not much better when they halved the dose so I slowly got off of them a couple years ago and finally feel almost normal (for me) again. Good luck and God bless.


  3. I just wrote a post in hopes to do my part in helping end the stigma on mental health, looks like you’re doing the same, great job!


  4. Your blog is so lovely that I have nominated you for the Sisterhood of Bloggers Award. You do not have to accept. If you would like to be able to post the badge on your site all you have to do is …

    Provide the link to the person who nominated you.
    Add the reward logo.
    Answer the questions your nominator has asked.
    Nominate 5 other bloggers and let them know via comments.
    Ask your nominees 5 questions.

    To see the questions I wrote for you to answer click the link below…


    If you want to see the questions I had to answer and my responses here is the link…



  5. Thanks for telling your story.

    My wife also suffers from bi-polar disorder and I started blogging as a way to connect with others, so perhaps I can understand my wife’s illness better. I look forward to hearing more of your story.

    I also invite you to take a peek at my blog. Perhaps there will be something there for you too!


  6. I am wondering if perhaps seroquel would be helpful. Don’t know if you have ever tried it, but my husband who also has bipolar 2, and social anxiety disorder started it last year and the changes he says are absolutely amazing. Plus I like him a hell of a lot better now. (lol) He no longer seems to worry about going out and doing things anymore, has even joined a club. That by itself surprised me. Oh and i noticed you get migraines..might want to stop the weed use. they worsen with it. (sorry will never lose the drug counselor in me)


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