After My First Session

When I first woke up I was just groggy and dozed on and off for a while. When it was time for me to go my head was hurting a little but not so bad really. Just a slight headache and I was nauseated but my stomach was definitely off. It just felt weird.

I think the worst part is that I am experiencing a lot of anxiety. I’m anxious about being alone tomorrow. I’m anxious about side effects that haven’t occurred yet. I’m worried about taking my anti anxiety meds. I am sure the anxiety will pass but it makes me hesitate to repeat the process.

I think that I will decide after tomorrow. I do feel better than I first did. I wish I could find something that made my stomach feel settled. My brain would feel settled. I am just off.

By the way why does and anestsia (sp?) hurt so fucking much when it enters your vein. We’ll see how it goes. Least my memory is ok so far.

I’m glad they decided to go with unilateral though. I think that bilateral would have been worse.

5 comments

  1. You did it! I’m sorry your tummy hurt and that sucks about the anxiety. Did you tell them how much the anesthesia hurt going in? I would…You shouldn’t have to go through that pain. I hope you keep going!!! I really think it will help you. And I also did unilateral and I’m glad you did too. Hang in there!

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  2. You did it! Good for you! Tell them how you felt about the anesthesia because they can adjust the dose and you won’t feel it as much.

    Don’t be discouraged if you don’t feel amazing tomorrow. I’m two weeks out of my last session and finally starting to feel better, and the foggy feeling is gone now too. (Has been for some time).

    Good luck!

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  3. Oh, I just thought if something. Stay hydrated tomorrow and eat as much as you can it will make the next one easier. I did not plan for that unfortunately and had a rough time with my second one. You can do it!

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  4. Sometimes the cure for what ails you is harsh. We knew it would be more serious than just popping a pill, but hang in there. You’re doing ECT because you don’t believe you have other options. Don’t lose sight of your goal.

    With all the operations I’ve had in the past few years, I’ve never had anesthesia hurt. Definitely talk to them about it next time.

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  5. Good for you for following through with your first treatment- it’s the worst because you don’t really know what to expect. Be patient with it- it takes more than one or two times to start to notice a change…

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