As you know I tired to cancel my appt but was talked into continuing. Right now I am again wondering why the hell I am doing this.
My appt was supposed to be for noon and we get here and they are backed up all to hell and back again and I was told my appt wasn’t supposed to be until one. Hello I have a piece of paper that tells me to be here at noon but no now I have to wait.
I haven’t drank or ate anything since 10:30 last night. I am hungry and thirsty and feel not quite myself. I am having a lot of anxiety about this and I am also feeling really disconnected from life. It’s pissing me off.
I completely forgot the fact my husband had to go into work Tuesday night, which I am my sure eat that pissed me off.
I’m frustrated more than words can describe. Maybe this was all a mistake.. I don’t know that I feel any better because I don’t feel right at all.
Sometimes that’s the way it happens with doctors and hospitals. Everything is an experience that we can learn from. Just hang in there!
The feeling if disconnection with the rest of your life dissipates after the acute phase, I promise. It doesn’t feel like it in the moment, but you’ll feel like yourself again. Maybe make a list if why you wanted to do it in the first place. Then post it up where you can read it on your way out the door? Good luck!