Writer’s Block

I’m just sitting here looking at my keyboard trying to think of something to write.

Let’s see. Well this morning I was awoken by thunderstorms. I hate hate hate thunderstorms. I’m terrified they will turn into a tornado. I know what to do if it happens but that doesn’t make it any less terrifying. Plus they are calling for storms all damn week. Hubby can not get off soon enough. Time off that is.

I played some hearthstone. It pissed me off so after two games I quit. I’m kind of shaky today.

Oh I read an entire book today, in about 6 hours. Ended up buying the sequel, hope it’s just as good. I can’t remember what it’s called and I’m too lazy to go downstairs and look or I’d tell you the name. It’s a gruesome story of a tormented female FBI agent who tracks down serial killers. Maybe not to everyone’s taste. I love being able to access so many books both through amazon and itunes. ¬†Usually I just read vampire/werewolf/witch books. I love the supernatural but the book was free and I’ll read a free book.

Well I guess I ended up writing more than I had thought would even come out. Apparently babbling to yourself is the way to write sometimes.

Tired of Feeling Like Crap

I realize I haven’t been sick all that long or I’ve been sick for a very long time. It’s confusing. I have intestinal issues but I have IBS plus sometimes it just acts up when I am stressed. I find it very tiring non the less.

I’m trying to find a way out of the circle I’ve made for myself. Working on a painting. Hopefully that will give me a little boost when it’s done. Just trying to give myself a positive thing to do every day, even if it’s just a little.

I’m feeling less depressed today than I did yesterday though, which makes me semi-smile.



Day 2 Of What I Hope Is A Year

I suppose I should get caught up. My mom came for a month and it was absolutely fantastic. We had such a good time together. It’s been two weeks since she went back to Canada and I really miss already. What are you gonna do when the man you love lives in the states though.

I also need to be more proactive in finding a way to visit my family in one way or another. I haven’t seen most of them for over 15 years. I don’t know where time went it just passed so quickly.

I need to renew my green card too which is a huge pain in the ass. I need to take the citizenship test. I think I could pass especially with some studying. Meh who knows.

I’m finding myself trying to break out of the circle I’ve built. Hopefully I find something before I go completely out of my fucking mind. Seriously.



Encouraging Thunder Award

Thank you to Gentle Kindness for nominating me for the Encouraging Thunder Award. I appreciate it so much! Thank you.

I sadly have no blogs to nominate but will add some soon.

My voice is blogging is to be able to fully express how I am feeling day to day. I want others to understand that it’s ok to feel the way you do and others are feeling that way as well.


On The Way to Disaster

0211.jpgIn response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “On the Way.”

Living to See Another Day

<blockquote>In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Reward.”


Computer is Set Up!

My Computer is set up and we have interwebs! So it will be much easier for me to post my blog each and every day. I hated even missing one but what are you going to do when you just don’t have the equipment to get er done.

Today we got several more boxes unpacked but there are so many left to do. We have to bring everything in from the garage still that was moved from MIL’s place and start moving boxes into storage and find the rest of the missing things. It’s a bit overwhelming.

I’ve forgotten to take my pristiq twice now which I know is not helping with my energy or helping with my mood. I am trying to stay up but today I needed to take a nap to get away from it all. It helped and now I am ready to get back into things.

I wanted to post my blog first though, so here it is!

How I Spent My Christmas

The title sounds like something you would have to write for school after the holidays. Yet I got some lovely pictures yesterday and wanted to share them with you all. My mood today is ok. I didn’t take my medications last night after drinking. I didn’t want to risk my health. I don’t think I am going to be drinking anymore, it seems really irresponsible. Even if it does help with the anxiety, it’s not a permanent solution.
Anyhow, here are the pics.

La La La Fall

Today we went into the woods for a walk so I could take more pictures and we ended up walking over 2 miles and it’s only 3:18pm so I’ve already more than passed my gial of daily step for the day. Yay!

I took some pictures which I thought I would share with you instead of babbling on today.  Enjoy!

An Award.. I’m So Flattered


I Am My Own Island nominated me for the One Lovely Blog Award. Thank you so much. It makes me feel like my blog is worth writing and very honored.

Here are the rules:

Thank and link back to the person who nominated you
List the rules and display the award
Include seven facts about yourself
Nominate 10-15 other bloggers and let them know about the award by commenting on their blog
Follow the blogger who nominated you (if not already!)

Seven things about myself is hard to do. I never not share anything. Here I go.
1) I love movies that make me cry. Especially cartoons.
2) I am too quick to judge but that is actually changing.
3) Halloween is my favorite holiday.
4) I’m naturally blonde but my hair hasn’t been just blonde in at least 4 years.
5) I want to learn how to play guitar and sing.
6) I’m the oldest silbling of 5.
7) Even though I have social anxiety. I often act silly in public because it makes me feel better.

10 Blogs I am nominating are:
1)Kitt O’Malley
2)Birth of a New Brain
3)Struggles of A Bipolar Woman
4)Don’t Cross My Borderline
5)Uneven Jenn
6)Bipolar in Bloom
7)Having A Life Again
8)Bipolar on Fire
9)BP Nurse