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Even Family Night Isn’t Working

It’s family dinner time and I didn’t even have to cook but I am still miserable. ¬†You would think being surrounded by loved ones would pick up my mood but it hasn’t.

Next week I have to go and sign papers selling our house and go to the INS for my stuff for renewing my greencard and it’s stressing me out

I’m stressed and depressed what a joy! I’m honestly so miserable. I know it is going to stop at some point but since I don’t know when it feels unbearable.

Even my facebook posts and copies are dark and about depression. I’m finding it so hard to do anything.

Accomplishment for the day, I showered. That’s something. I mean it has to mean something. If I didn’t have an accomplishment a day I think I would just give up completely. I don’t think my husband understands how hard this cycle is being on me.

I should try to tell him.

Day 2 Of What I Hope Is A Year

I suppose I should get caught up. My mom came for a month and it was absolutely fantastic. We had such a good time together. It’s been two weeks since she went back to Canada and I really miss already. What are you gonna do when the man you love lives in the states though.

I also need to be more proactive in finding a way to visit my family in one way or another. I haven’t seen most of them for over 15 years. I don’t know where time went it just passed so quickly.

I need to renew my green card too which is a huge pain in the ass. I need to take the citizenship test. I think I could pass especially with some studying. Meh who knows.

I’m finding myself trying to break out of the circle I’ve built. Hopefully I find something before I go completely out of my fucking mind. Seriously.