So far it hasn’t been so bad, tonight when I go to bed alone will really give me the feeling of aloneness.

My MIL came and brought dinner and is staying the night, she is so awesome to be spending the nights with me hubby is gone. It’s scary here alone.

I’ve kept myself in a general state of numbness all day and plan to mix and repeat again tomorrow. I’ll get through this one day at a time.

I’m an adult and can handle this. Wish I felt more like an adult.