I Am A Coward

I sent myself into such a tithes with anxiety last night I ended up unable to sleep and throwing up. Around four am I cancelled my procedure and asked for a reschedule. I feel like am I a failure who let people down.

I’ve been backsliding the past couple of weeks. I haven’t been going out as much and my anxiety is back up. Like way back up. I know I need to do this for my own good. The depression will kill me.

I have no idea why I am so anxious. I do know I am filled with a lot of self hart red right now.

I’ve stopped going to my therapy sessions and now this. What am I going to do?