I have no idea how I feel. I’m not sad, I’m not angry, I’m not happy, I’m not joy filled. I’m just in the middle of the middle.

Nothing happened today which is good, because if nothing happens, nothing bad happened.

I think I am a little frustrated and a little stressed because of the house.

I start the Lithium tonight, I am a little nervous but honestly I need to stop the spinning.  Ok I am more than nervous I think I am terrified to try adding another medication in when honestly the last week has been pretty damned good.

New stuff always makes me fearful. I’ve been having a few more anxiety attacks lately then I was having before. I know it will pass and I have to just fight through it.

Fight, breathe, fight, breathe, fight…I can do it.