Last night I sat watching people I love being around having a really great time but I felt like I was on the outside and just showing a mask to everyone. It was weird.

Tonight I’m just tired of this depression. Every day I hope I get better and every day I don’t. It’s a lot to take.

It’s very hard to entertain when all you want to do is be in bed.

I am also noticing that I am not enjoying being high as much as I was before. I’ll have to do some research on this.

I’ll let you know whatever I figure out.