I showered… thank god that’s over because I smelled like weed. I started to notice it.. ya I needed that.

Today has been pretty uneventful except for the shower.

I was also horny as hell but it passed. This is weird because I haven’t been sexually aroused in quite some time because of the depression. Have I mentioned that I have the best husband ever? I have a man that can put up with the ups and mostly downs lately.

Tonight I’m just stoned and listening to music. I’ve felt kind of sad again today. Again since it is a feeling I should embrace it but I can’t. Emotions scare me.

They make me into other people.

Fuck em.