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- Mothers Day Cake
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- I ate all this in one fucking night.
My husband being the sweet man that he is gave me a cake for Mother’s Day. I took a picture of it because I was going to show how pretty it was.. Little did I know that I would actually be showing off what a fucking pig I am. I ate all that in a few hours. Then promptly threw it up. Things are getting worse. I am actually almost crying while I am posting this. I am so frustrated. I am out of my Viibryd and the shrink still hasn’t gotten back to me with refills. I want to go off it true, but not cold turkey. I hate how horrible you feel when that happens. I’ve had it done on a few things. Even going slowly off a med doesn’t feel good.
I said to my husband what if I tried to kill myself with something I know wouldn’t kill me so they take me seriously?. He was a little upset to say the least. I’m tired of being depressed. Sometimes I do want to die to make it stop. I wish I didn’t love my husband so much it would be easier to just let go. As long as he is here and loves me though I gotta keep fighting.
A Bipolars Reality 
Coming off meds really does suck, but you’ll make it – I’m sure you will! Take care. Hope you’re feeling better soon.
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I fucking hate incompassionate doctors (is that a word? Brain fog is bad today), I fucking hate being in a position where a doctor has control over my own body and feelings by having the power to delay or change medication… SO fruatrating. I’m really sorry for what you’re going through. You ARE fortunate to have a supportive and understanding husband, but even that can only help so much in a situation like this. I’m sure he feels helpless as well. Sending prayers and positive energy your way…
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Yep, hate dr’s who play God over you.
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I admire you. Keep fighting the evil shit!
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I feel your pain, and I admire you for being so up front about what you’re going through. I’ve had the same thought – trying to kill yourself just so people take you seriously. I have that thought a lot actually. But stay strong! You’re not alone.
-B
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