alcohol

Decisions

Yesterday after talking to my psychiatrist it made me rethink if I should go to the doctors tomorrow.

My shrink believes that my tummy troubles are because of the stress and anxiety that I and life have been putting myself under. I think she is right honestly.

The problem is the lack of motivation to eat. Now to be honest today has been better than it has been in a while. I might make 900 calories, 1000 if I have another shake before bed.  That may not seem like enough but I’m not over extending my energy so I am ok for now.

My shrink gave me pills for nausea which is one of my problems. If I can get past this and start enjoying food again it would be wonderful.

I’ll let you all know how it goes tomorrow whichever way I choose.

(still no weed by choice) I am considering giving up alcohol for good just so my meds can work to their full potential.

Does anyone else drink from time to time? I was drinking a couple bottles of wine once a week with my SIL.  I think I’m over it.

So It’s Begun

I woke up this morning and the feeling of overwhelming stress hit me. It’s that holiday feeling. Not that good one but one of panic!

There will be 4 children and 5 adults here later tonight and I am planning on not drinking and just trying to deal with everything. At least I was but as the hours pass and it is getting closer to everyone being here I am thinking about just a couple relaxing bottles of wine to help me relax.. err glasses wow think there was something going on in my brain there.. Like it will take 2 bottles of wine to relax. hahaha.. I’m funny sometimes.

Christmas won’t be that bad because it will be all adults. There is the opening of presents which I am embarrassed by. I never know if I react properly .. lots of stress.

Needless to say it will be tough couple of days, then we mix and repeat new year’s eve. I can make it through it though. I may have anxiety attacks and I may feel like running, but I can do this. It’s something normal family’s do.

Anyhow I hope you have a wonderful Christmas Eve and Christmas morning, see you tomorrow!