I’ve been so stressed out.I really hate the holiday season it gets me all up in arms. I’ve decided to not do things a month ahead because I’m so anxious about still being sick. I think that I said yesterday I had gotten a second cold and sadly I am still having tummy issues. It makes it hard to live like I should. I am tired of my social anxiety.
I realize I am better than I was even just 2 years ago where I never left the house for any reason. Yet it feels like I am backsliding. As I write this I am fighting off a panic attack. My arms are prickling which I know is the start of a breathing panic attack. So I am trying to breathe slowly and realize even though I have a cold I am alright.
I just want to be in my home. My own home where I can feel ill and comfortable. I don’t know if you can imagine what it is like to feel ill while living in someone else’s home. It’s very uncomfortable. Even though we stay in a room here I feel like I don’t have a place to be alone. Even though we are family it still doesn’t feel right. I feel alone, yet not.
It’s so very hard to describe it, but it is not making life very easy right now.
Gonna give in and take a clonezapam however it’s spelled.. I’m gonna go and try and relax now.
I’m so sorry you feel anxious and not comfortable there – I’d feel the same way too!!!! I hope tomorrow is much, much better for you, sweetie! You are so strong and amazing – I don’t get a chance to tell you that but I want you to know that i think this every time I read your posts!!!! XOXO
I certainly know that horrible feeling. I hope you can find some peace and relief from those feelings and from your cold. For me, physical illness makes everything feel worse. I am routing for you!
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Taking your meds sounds like a good idea. Take care and I hope you feel better soon.