I forgot to write my blog yesterday because I was watching a show when my alarm went off and thought for sure I would remember later.. I did not.
Yesterday I was pretty miserable. Today I am just highly anxious about next week. Listening to my crush sing for a while helped a little though. Made me stop thinking for a bit. Every time I want a little pick me up I watch the videos on YouTube and it gives me a tiny lift if I am not at rock bottom. Maybe this means I’m on the way to an upswing. *fingers crossed*
I did try to nap today though but it was because of the anxiety, not the depression. Was not successful my brain just never shuts up.
Next week I have to go and sign the papers that sell our old home and I have to go to the INS for my new permanent resident. I rarely go out and when I do I usually prefer not to be where people are, but I have to go to both of these things and I have to interact. Terrifying I tell ya. I just have to remember that my anti-nausea meds and mint gum are my best friends in those situations.
Music sounds good today, that’s a really good sign. I’m afraid to hope though.