Fidget, Fidget

Today my mood is better which is a good thing because I am so fucking bored. I am beginning to wish that I drove. There is nothing to walk to near way I am. It’s like the middle of no where. The lake is pretty but it’s frozen and I don’t know how to skate.

When we get into our house there are a few things in biking distance and a lot more thing being built that I will be able to walk to. Plus I’ll have my stuff so I won’t be bored to death. I’ve been drawing a little but I really want to paint. I’m tired of not having access or ability to do the things that bring me happiness.

It’s day in and day out of TV. I can’t even seem to get into reading. The floor is disgusting so I can’t do yoga. ARGHHH!
At least being pissed because I’m bored is better than being pissed for no reason.

Again this is also really lonely. I’ve been talking to hubby on AIM, tried to get a hold of my BFF but she has a lot going on in her life so I only get to talk to her a bit here and there. I’m just glad she is in my life. Wish we lived closer.

She reminds me that life is worth living, even if you are bored senseless.


  1. I don’t drive either. Due to my agoraphobia I can’t even walk anywhere, though I live downtown and near… everything. Sudden, expected financial strains left me without Internet or cable (I connect via a spotty Wi-Fi courtesy of where I live) which means zero entertainment. I totally feel you on the disconnection, boredom, and just… bleh. Also, I’m perpetually pissed, so that makes me more crabby about everything.

    But as you closed the post: life is still worth living. Thanks for the reminder! 🙂


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