I am wondering if my medications need to be adjusted down. I can’t seem to feel things as fully as I should.
I have lost my creativity. I have lost my emotions. I don’t like how this feels.
I am unable to grieve. I can’t cry. I got teary eyed the first few days but I haven’t actually been able to let go and just sob. I really need to. I can feel that at least.
I want to feel an interest in something. I want to feel joy at something. I want to feel grief. I want to feel.
I now understand why so many bipolars go off their meds. Lucky(?) for me the past depression has etched a scar that keeps me from doing that.
I wish Dani was here to talk to.