Month: August 2016

Admitting Your Wrong Changes Nothing

You are still wrong if you don’t do something to change it right? You can admit it till the cows come home, big deal.

Smoking the weed and it working on my depression medication and fucking it up, but like I said what am I going to do about it.

 

 

Going Out

Haven’t been doing much of it honestly and I truly am missing it. I didn’t realize that I would until well here I am.

Actually gonna see if I can talk hubby into going for a walk in a bit. I need some poke balls.

*update*

We went out and had lunch at a restaurant and also did some poke stuff. It was cool when I make myself do something.

 

 

He’s The Man

Last night I handed hubby my weed and told him I don’t want it again until I ask for it. I’m hoping that disappointing him will be enough to stop this daily smokefest that I am on. The depression is almost fully here now.

I Hate It When He’s Right

Which honestly more often than not I suppose lately.  It’s annoying and he doesn’t even rub it in. He just looks at me with those gorgeous blue eyes and I cow my head like a small child.

My plan is to not smoke any weed this weekend and just concentrate on hanging out with hubby. I forgot just how much I enjoy being with him till the month without the weed.

The depression is coming back again, It’s right there I can almost touch it if I reached out I’m afraid if would be even more tangible.

 

Ignoring The Blog Should Be Easier

I had practically forgotten to run by my computer and write this very blog post. It’s nothing stellar, just that what I didn’t do with my days and whathavits . Occasionally I like to make up my own word I don’t know why.

Today has been particularly uneventful actually, though we might get storms and that would throw some much needed excitement to my day.

I watched the shows I’m DVRing to watch by myself and just kind of got high and chilled. The pot is definitely a mistake, one I won’t make again but this time who knows..

 

Barely Interested In Moving Around

I don’t even want to be writing this blog right now. Yet I know if I don’t it will eat me up inside for missing a day, much like all the other days I’ve missed. I only think I missed on purpose once and it wasn’t going to be today.

I’ve done nothing with my day but watch TV. Nothing exciting going on.

One bad thing about this weed is it makes you eat.. A Lot..

Weed Keeps Me Unmovitated

Maybe it’s just the kind that i have but it really making me want to do nothing but nap. So nap I’m gonna do.

 

Just Do It

I don’t have a lot of want to do things today yet I did. I actually suggested going out and looking for pokemon this afternoon and we founds 3-4 new ones! So I’m glad I pushed myself.

I really need to cut my nails they are getting in the way constantly. Makes typing horrible.

 

Going Off Pristiq

So far it has lead me to be nauseated and unable to sleep. My sleep last night was worst than normal. These hot flashes are killing me and than insomnia rears it’s ugly head. My husband even purchased a cooling mattress topper and pillow for me and I still wake up in pool of my own sweat several times a night. I suppose I am going to need to get some hormone replacement therapy if this keeps up.  I’m too tired to write honestly, I just want to get stoned and chill, so I will.

Horrible At Making Decisions

Last night I missed writing my blog because I was too stoned to give a shit.  Honestly I thought about it then just didn’t do it.

I thought that I had made the decision not to get anymore pot but when we were out tonight I had hubby get out the cash I needed for it anyhow. I even told him he was right and he didn’t try and talk me out of it, but then he treats me like an adult who can make her own decisions.

Tonight we went to downtown Gretna and walk around for a couple of hours catching pokemon and exploring. It’s nice down there and you can walk without thinking about it too much.

Also my shrink is taking me off the pristiq so we shall see if we get any side effects from that.