Well last night about 4am I woke up with almost a migraine headache. Then my nose was running this morning. I think I am getting a head cold. No chills or fevers so not worried about the flu. I can deal with a head cold and if the head ache is because of the withdrawal I can deal with that too. I do have some body aches but they are slight.
My mood today was good but I was super tired I slept until 1:30pm then went back to have a nap at 4:00pm I was just so tired. I still feel tired. Course getting woken up before 8 in the morning every day is super new for me and is going to take some adjusting. Honestly so far I am not seeing a difference without the rexulti. That may prove to be different, we’ll see.
I was told Havanese were really barky. It’s damn true. She barks and barks and barks, and right now it’s this high pitched thing which sometimes sounds like someone is testing the fire alarm. I knew what I was getting into. Right now because I am not downstairs she is barking for me to come back. I’m secretly happy as that means she is attached to me and I really wanted one of the dogs to be like that. I could do without the barking though.
Not much else to say other than I won’t be writing my blog stoned again, or at least not as stoned as I was because it really took me forever to write a damn blog post.
Today my mood was pretty good. Nothing got me down. My husband even had to work late and I was totally chill about it.
Today the puppy was awesome and would told to go potty, she runs to the peepads and goes, like on command. It’s nice because I know she won’t (hopefully) pee on the comforter again.
Sorry I’m too stoned to write, it’s taken me forever to write this. This was not my intention, I thought that Iwould be able to write better but clearly not, eep. \_O_/
The Rexulti withdrawal was fine today on the first day of going down to 1mgs.
Today I woke up and decided that I just wanted to listen to music for a little bit. Four hours later my husband is asking me what I want for dinner and I’m shocked that so much time had passed. I didn’t think I could enjoy music just as much not stoned as stoned but today proved me wrong. I had the same relaxing feeling of just laying back and listening to my favorite tunes and dozing. hehe.
Not much else happened today but I did say I would write my blog every day.
I hav e been spending time with my mom because she went home today. We spent a lot of time talking and stoned! There was some hilarity and giggles, honestly most of the visit was awesome.
Today is also my 15th wedding anniversary. Woot! It’s been a wonderful day and my husband bought me a beautiful ring.
My mood is definitely better. I think the meds are helping but once again don’t want to get too hopeful. Hope is the doom for me a lot of the time.
I really appreciate you taking time out of your day to read what is going on with me and sharing how you feel in the comments!
Hugs to all.
I wasn’t going to blog today and I was okay with that for a while. Than out of nowhere I felt guilty about not writing so here I am stoned off my ass writing my blog post for the night. I’m a little late but I haven’t gone to bed so I consider it the same day.
Anyhow my mood was OK today. I had some fun, did some painting. Watched some Netflix. I’m trying really hard not to feel hopeful about a possible upswing but that’s really hard to do.
Right now I’m just relaxing listening to music.
My mom came yesterday that is why I didn’t post. Plus I had mom in law and sis in law and some kids over as well.
Tonight we’re going to watch the remake of rocky horror picture show, stoned off our asses.
I was too stoned and forgot to write my blog again.. or maybe I did… nah I didn’t.
Today was productive. I’ve had a shower, washed some clothes and working on cleaning the bedding right now. Well drying it. I went out to Michael’s to get some Halloween decor for our island in the kitchen and I also went to best buy to replace my speakers.
I also haven’t smoked yet. So productivity first, smoking after.
I had a good time last night though, hung out with hubby watching the last season of Netflix New Girl. I’m not sure how far behind we are now, but it was wonderful anyhow.
My mood has definitely been up and I think it’s the weed. It’s mixing with my antidepressants just right..
So far it has lead me to be nauseated and unable to sleep. My sleep last night was worst than normal. These hot flashes are killing me and than insomnia rears it’s ugly head. My husband even purchased a cooling mattress topper and pillow for me and I still wake up in pool of my own sweat several times a night. I suppose I am going to need to get some hormone replacement therapy if this keeps up. I’m too tired to write honestly, I just want to get stoned and chill, so I will.
Not feeling the whole blog writing thing today. I’m not sure why I am really starting to worry now.
Though last night I had a guest and we smoked some weed and drank some beers. It was nice to have a conversation with someone other than hubby. Don’t get me wrong, I never get tired of listening to my husband, his voice is just so soothing and lifting. It’s just nice to have a excited person to listen to.
Tonight I’m stoned again, tomorrow I will go back to not having any and I am okay with that. It’s not making me as motivated as I would like to be about going out. So maybe I’ll make it a super occasional thing instead of getting more myself, but we’ll see how I feel about it when I’m not stoned.
So far it hasn’t been uncomfortable but I’ve been stoned lol. That helps a lot. I ran out though again.. sigh. I wish I had my own plants, so I could just have it whenever I wanted it and didn’t have to trouble anyone else.
I don’t know how the next several days are going to go but I’ll ride them out cause that’s what I do.
Whats the worst that can happen anyhow right?