Today I should be positively joyful. I got a lovely award, I reached 100 followers (I know some of these are likely not really interested in my blog) and this is my 100th post. I kind of feel nothing though. I just want to sleep. I am not happy I am not sad, I am just numb.
However this month is Mental Health Month. I am going to continue to post every day just like I had planned! I am not going to let this bring me down. I may cry, I may scream, I may sleep BUT I WILL POST!!!
It’s important to me. I like to think that the sincere people following want to read what I have to say whether I am babbling or writing a story or whatever. They thought I was worth clicking on that follow button. So it’s grown beyond just letting myself down. We bloggers are like a family. Sometimes a quiet lurking family and sometimes a family that posts and says to us what we want to hear and sometimes even what we need to hear when we don’t wanna. I love that.
So to my Bipolar, Borderline Personality Disorder, Anxiety Disorder.. FUCK YOU, I’m going to win. No matter how many times you knock me down I will get back up and give you the finger..
I clicked like because I want to read what people say. I’m so alone, it is nice to hear from others.
Happy 100 and happy 100! Can you give my illnesses the finger too, please?
Thank your of course hehe
Looooove every word!
Ps just tweeted this!
Thank you 🙂
It’s great to see people managing to find some real grit after April. It looks like it was a shitty month for everyone – It’s absolutely GREAT to see you giving the illness a difficult time.
All the best,