My appetite is back, though I don’t want it to be. I liked being disgusted by food. Now some things are starting to taste good to me.
That’s the slide backward right? My as will not thank me I can tell you that.
Bipolar
Just Blah
I am in no mood to do anything. I just want to curl up in bed and stay there and sleep, dream. Get away from here.
Admitting Your Wrong Changes Nothing
You are still wrong if you don’t do something to change it right? You can admit it till the cows come home, big deal.
Smoking the weed and it working on my depression medication and fucking it up, but like I said what am I going to do about it.
Going Out
Haven’t been doing much of it honestly and I truly am missing it. I didn’t realize that I would until well here I am.
Actually gonna see if I can talk hubby into going for a walk in a bit. I need some poke balls.
*update*
We went out and had lunch at a restaurant and also did some poke stuff. It was cool when I make myself do something.
He’s The Man
Last night I handed hubby my weed and told him I don’t want it again until I ask for it. I’m hoping that disappointing him will be enough to stop this daily smokefest that I am on. The depression is almost fully here now.
I Hate It When He’s Right
Which honestly more often than not I suppose lately. It’s annoying and he doesn’t even rub it in. He just looks at me with those gorgeous blue eyes and I cow my head like a small child.
My plan is to not smoke any weed this weekend and just concentrate on hanging out with hubby. I forgot just how much I enjoy being with him till the month without the weed.
The depression is coming back again, It’s right there I can almost touch it if I reached out I’m afraid if would be even more tangible.
Ignoring The Blog Should Be Easier
I had practically forgotten to run by my computer and write this very blog post. It’s nothing stellar, just that what I didn’t do with my days and whathavits . Occasionally I like to make up my own word I don’t know why.
Today has been particularly uneventful actually, though we might get storms and that would throw some much needed excitement to my day.
I watched the shows I’m DVRing to watch by myself and just kind of got high and chilled. The pot is definitely a mistake, one I won’t make again but this time who knows..
Barely Interested In Moving Around
I don’t even want to be writing this blog right now. Yet I know if I don’t it will eat me up inside for missing a day, much like all the other days I’ve missed. I only think I missed on purpose once and it wasn’t going to be today.
I’ve done nothing with my day but watch TV. Nothing exciting going on.
One bad thing about this weed is it makes you eat.. A Lot..
Weed Keeps Me Unmovitated
Maybe it’s just the kind that i have but it really making me want to do nothing but nap. So nap I’m gonna do.
Just Do It
I don’t have a lot of want to do things today yet I did. I actually suggested going out and looking for pokemon this afternoon and we founds 3-4 new ones! So I’m glad I pushed myself.
I really need to cut my nails they are getting in the way constantly. Makes typing horrible.
A Bipolars Reality 