Not in the mood to blog. Just wanna get high and listen to music by myself.
My moms visit is going well, I just think she may be bored ya know? I am planning on going to the zoo next week though.
Watching the world series. I don’t like baseball but it’s history happening in my lifetime no matter what happens so worth watching the final game. Gonna go back to watching that. Good luck to whomever has a stake in it.
I am not sure if the new antidepressant is doing anything but I’ve only been on it for like 10 days. I’ll wait and see what happens when we get to the full dosage.
Today I went to the zoo and took some pictures and movies. We really have one of the best zoos, actually it was voted best zoo in america so there ya go. I took some little movies of big cats.
it was really stressful because it was so jam packed with people. Honestly a few times I wanted to run for the exit, but I fought past it. The exposure therapy is definitely working. I was terrified to go, I almost chickened out. I find if I push myself to do something I am uncomfortable it doesn’t turn out to be the nightmare I’ve made of it in my head.
I also ended up going to dinner and found a giant hello kitty pez dispenser, it made me so happy. I love hello kitty things. I love pink. I also got a little stuffed turtle cause I love turtles too.
Also I can paint in the dining room again!! Yay that means that I will have some pictures done for the walls when we move into the house and it actually feels like I am going to be able to get through the next 5 weeks and 4 days much easier with a game, painting, ps4. It will make time past so much faster. I’m actually excited about the future,
After freaking out and crying yesterday, I was happy. Today I am happy. I apparently needed to vent and clear my aura.. I feel so much better.
Today we went to the zoo. It was really nice and I hardly even got any anxiety.
Afterwards we went and had lunch and I basically just enjoyed the day. I am trying to think more positively and listen to my therapist about just enjoying being happy as opposed to always expecting the worst to happen.
I think even though I have had some hard times lately I have smiled more than I have in a long time. It would be nice if it keeps going….