Month: June 2016

Hubbies Home

I’m finally back to normal with hubby at home. Now I just have to take advantage of it so I’m not gonna spend a lot of time typing.

 

Purposely Didn’t Write

My alarm went off and instead of hitting snooze or writing the blog I just shut it off. I was hanging with my sis in law, drinking and listening to tunes. I was relaxed and didn’t want to get out of the zone.

I almost didn’t write today but I certainly don’t need that to become a habit.

Today has been good, visited with sis in law a little today and mom in law is spending the night. Tomorrow hubby comes home.!! Yay!

I Hate Hubby Being Away

I don’t even have a shirt of his that has his scent because we washed all the laundry this weekend.

I’m sad and non-motivated to even write my blog today. Sorry.

First Day Without Hubby

So far it hasn’t been so bad, tonight when I go to bed alone will really give me the feeling of aloneness.

My MIL came and brought dinner and is staying the night, she is so awesome to be spending the nights with me hubby is gone. It’s scary here alone.

I’ve kept myself in a general state of numbness all day and plan to mix and repeat again tomorrow. I’ll get through this one day at a time.

I’m an adult and can handle this. Wish I felt more like an adult.

Just In A Bad Mood

I’m kind of grumpy though I am not letting hubby know that I am feeling that way because I don’t want him to feel guilty about going on his trip. This will be the longest time we’ve been apart since we’ve been together in the states. The bed will be cold and lonely.

Today I’ve just been sitting around him a lot and hugging the hell out of him whenever I can!

Other than that I am just not a happy camper, but I am trying to enjoy our last night together. So I won’t be writing here any longer today.

 

Stressed Out

I’ve been kind of blocking the fact that hubby is leaving Monday for 5 days. Today he brought it up and now I’ve been obsessing about it. I’m so glad my mom in law is coming to stay with me. I don’t know that I could do 4 whole days with no outer contact. I was trying to listen to music but it seemed like every song that came on had something to do with missing someone. I got teary and shut the music off.

The new weed is not that great. It makes me over eat and makes me just want to lounge. I prefer something that keeps my body moving.. ah well.

I’m gonna go spend time with hubby while I can.

Fridays and Weather

It’s always interesting when a storm comes through. Will it be a little rain? 100mph sheer winds? Tornado? Who really honestly knows when a cold front hits a warm front what will happen.

Today we just have some rain and just a little at that. Sometimes I just lay in tense terror waiting for something bad to happen.

Today I am feeling foggy, is it the weed, my allergies, the new meds.. who knows but my head is full of cotton. Hate that with a passion.

This Friday sucks cause it is the end of my hubbies vacation with me. After this weekend I have to go a full week without him 😦 I hate being separated from my love.

 

Last Night

It didn’t go like planned last night. We ordered two pizza’s and mom in law came for dinner but sis in law could only stop in a few minutes because she had a date. Got to meet him, he seemed nice.

I did at least get to finally get my stone back on. I’m a happier camper. Though honestly my mood has been improving with each day. Also my emotions are all showing, it’s interesting, I didn’t realize just how numb I really was until I cried at a sad video and got angry at a slight done to me. Plus they weren’t over the top and the anger didn’t last long after I got to my punching bag. Best thing hubby ever bought for us. You scream and kick the hell out of it. Very relaxing. Hmm that sounds weird but that is the way it makes me feel.

Today I haven’t done really much at all. I did eat some banana bread without thinking food is yucky, so that’s good. Mostly I’ve just been ‘chillin’ and listening to some tunes. Which is also very relaxing. Feels like a Sunday but it’s only Thursday. I love it when hubby takes the week off work to spend time with me and his computer. *wink*

Family Dinner 2

Tonight is the night mom & sis in law come over for dinner. I’m actually looking forward to seeing some people. I have been dreading it before now.

Physically I am starting to feel a little better. It’s nice to not wake up with a head full of cotton for a change. My allergies are so shitty.

Today I’ve swept the front porch and ordered my new cell phone. I rocked that call. I was funny and outgoing it seemed like I was a completely different person.. Well I’m always a little funny. 😛

I’ve decided when I get my new phone I will start going out at least once a day and taking a picture of whatever I see. So there will likely be photos along with my blog posts.  I’m posting the idea here because it makes me more accountable. Me and my BFF did this once before. It was on my other blog, but I’m trying to work on just this one for now.

I miss her so much. She was so good at kicking my ass and keeping me motivated. I want to do this for her, I want her to see from where ever she is now and be proud of me.