Everything Depresses Me

Today we got our shelving and dressers and I could finally get rid of the last of the boxes. I thought that I would be thrilled and for a few minutes as I looked around I was.

I then realized I had nothing to do. I can’t do laundry until our washer and dryer come Tuesday and I can’t really make much food wise until the fridge gets here.

Plus it doesn’t feel like home. I know it will eventually but right now it feels like a house with our stuff and some new stuff put into it. I am sure some of you understand that.

I should be used to this feeling. I’ve moved a lot in my life. Used to amount to about 1 new place every year and a half but now it feels wrong.

I know part of it is the depression and part of it is the adjustment. I’ll deal with it I always do.

I Didn’t Post Yesterday

I was exhausted and by the time I realized that I hadn’t posted my blog I was way to tired to make it all the way up the stairs and wait for the computer to start.

I also really truly had nothing to say. My mood was the same from the day before and the only thing that had changed was my clothes. No wait I was still in my jammies from the day before so not even that changed.

Today I woke up and did yoga. I unpacked a couple more boxes and went out to a few stores with hubby to get some essentials. Today was worth getting on the blog for.

I’m still taking the wellbutrin and pristiq and latuda. I don’t know if they are making much of a difference. Right now it doesn’t feel like it. I suppose getting things done and going out is better than laying in bed all day though right?

Yet Another Day Passes

Today was not a bad day. My mood was a little better and I managed to get quite a bit accomplished.

The house is starting to look like a house. There are some pictures on the walls and shelves getting filled. I can’t wait for Saturday when we get the last of the shelves and bedroom furniture. Tuesday the appliances come and I’ll be able to get the rest of the clothing washed and put away and maybe then I can get on to cleaning the floor. it’s so dusty.

At least I am feeling motivated. Time for sleep now though. Hubby goes back to work tomorrow so it will be my first real day here alone. That will take some getting used to. I think I can do it though.

Another Med

Today I went to see my shrink and we talked about the depression and general lack of motivation. I’m going to stay on the pristiq and latuda and am adding wellbutrin into the mix. She is hoping it will just give me a general push upwards.

Next week I get to do the spit test to see what drugs will work best for me. As it is I think the pristiq is making me gain a little weight and usually it has a lack of wanting to eat side effect. I never seem to get the side effects I want lol.

The house is really getting into shape. I can’t wait for it to be completely unpacked. I am tired of looking at boxes. Just need to wait for my shelves and dressers to get here. Then boom I’ll be done. Have to wait for Saturday though. Guess that is not too far off. Feels like it is though.

My mood was kind of meh today but not completely down. I am still having a hard time finding interest in anything to do though and the things I usually enjoy are also just not being enjoyed. Sigh.

I know it will get better, these waves just have to keep being ridden. I wouldn’t mind a nice smooth even keel for a longer amount of time though. I don’t think that is asking to much.

Living to See Another Day

<blockquote>In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Reward.”

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Still Feeling Down

My mood is still down. I know that it is chemical and messing up my meds didn’t help. It’s really frustrating.

I hope that things pick up again soon, after all the stress of moving and living with MIL I think I deserve a little joy .. we’ll see though.

Tomorrow I have an appt with my shrink hopefully she’ll have some insight.

I Thought I Would Feel Different

I thought that my emotions would be different. I thought that I would suddenly want to do all sorts of things. I thought once I was in my house I wouldn’t experience the depression. I was wrong.

I’ve been feeling kind of blah today. Things are still not completely put away and I can’t take care of them until some dressers and shelves come later this week. I’m feeling overwhelmed and stressed.

I thought that I would just automatically be happier. I didn’t think that the mood swings would happen so soon. I thought I would at least be able to ride the high of owning a home.

It’s frustrating. I want to be happy and relaxed. Stupid brain.

Computer is Set Up!

My Computer is set up and we have interwebs! So it will be much easier for me to post my blog each and every day. I hated even missing one but what are you going to do when you just don’t have the equipment to get er done.

Today we got several more boxes unpacked but there are so many left to do. We have to bring everything in from the garage still that was moved from MIL’s place and start moving boxes into storage and find the rest of the missing things. It’s a bit overwhelming.

I’ve forgotten to take my pristiq twice now which I know is not helping with my energy or helping with my mood. I am trying to stay up but today I needed to take a nap to get away from it all. It helped and now I am ready to get back into things.

I wanted to post my blog first though, so here it is!

In The New House

We’ve moved into the new house. All our stuff from California is here and we moved all the stuff from MIL’s house here. Last night we slept on the floor but tonight we are sleeping back in our king sized bed.. *relief*

Today we spent a lot of time opening boxes and figuring out where stuff should go, we still have tons of boxes to go through but we have to wait for our bought stuff to arrive so we have surfaces and other places to put things.

Last night we watched Big Hero 6, it gave me a lot of joy. You should watch it if you like that sort of thing. Made me laugh my ass off.

My mood has been pretty good since we got everything done yesterday. I was so stressed out about signing the papers and everything and then I didn’t have any anxiety at all during that time.

We’ll be buying a new bedroom set which will be nice, right now our bedroom looks like a dorm room a bed with no head board or furnishings.

It’s sad when the guest bedroom looks better than your own.

My mood has been fairly up today. I’m tired and realize that I really need to get into better shape.

I’m a home owner though so everything is good.

Hubby let me slave on his phone so I could post tonight, is he awesome or what? I didn’t even know you could do that!

Last Post For Several Days

Tomorrow we move into our new house and we’ll be spending the next week unpacking and getting things set up.

I’ll have internet on Saturday so if I’m not completely exhausted I will try and post then but no promises.

Anyhow off to finish the last of the packing….. see you soon!